DIE
10:37 p.m. || 2007-04-01 |
DIE. I JUST WANT TO DIE.
Today is Wednesday. something to look forward to, something to dread. ohwells. bringing me back to the point about how blogs are kind of useless cos you can't blog about certain things in fear that the wrong eyes would chance upon it. gosh its all around me lors. like a off-hand comment from krit during math lecture can affect me so much, how am I going to survive?
when I can just be myself, without worrying about anything or anyone, where the library and com lab would be practically empty and super quiet for me to do my work. where the canteen would be filled with only some J1s. where I can buy food without the need to queue up. aka all the slots where everyone else had H1 lecture. I'm feeling emo. oh wells. I'm tired. really tired. How to survive? and its monday. torturous weeks.
March holidays are mostly spent studying with darling, libraries, fast food places, his house, my house.. yupps. So I guess my parents kind of accepted the fate that I do have a -cough- boo-yf. hahahs, after a super long time. speaking of which, we've been together for more than 11 months!!! hahahs. drama got new couple. also. hahaha that makes it err 4! lols but we're the looonggest. hahaha lolx. I'm feeling crazy now. yepyep. went kbox on saturday, (with peijun, xiaoyu, nerdsrules, anticlimax, jameslye, thaiprincess) and after getting lost in the new amk hub shopping center (and buying a shisamo for 2 bucks), xiaoyu and anticlimax attempted to teach me maths over lunch. heex thanks guys! Cleared like 5 bowls of peanuts with peijun with xiaoyu constant "leave some for other people lahs" Not to mention Peijun's peanut juice and her xing fu, the Ken waiter. hahaha. and of course our kbox trademark, cyndi songs! aka sabo. Had a look in James's big and bulky birthday book and one thing I remembered from it was.. 18th April people are emotionally unstable. anyway I realised that I'm a mugger long before exams, and slacker right before exams. hahah I had H2 maths and lit on tuesday but spent most of monday on maple and I slept at like 11. while aaron was cracking his brains over H1 maths till 1plus. -.-"" ohwells. Lit is okay while maths is a sure fail. ungraded again. signz. might be able to get a double digit though xD dep unseen on friday! I wanna go out celebrate on thursday though, meaning I gotta finish studying everything today. heex. okokies. my cleric level 70 le! can get 3rd job and be priest le! woohoo..I'm leading a holy life =P but after getting third job I shall stop playing... and train my ice mage instead! muahahaha. kayyyzz mi shall go read Gp package now.(so irrelevant right. hahahs) tata~
my aims: A for maths, C for Gp, maths & dep.
maths lecture was amazingly self-amused. what with wenbin's drawings of sausages and kinder surprise turned radio. and I actually listened like 50% of the time. what an achievement yeah? plus my vandilisation of the LT chair. I had a nightmare last night. It was horrible. I'm so afraid, cos dreams are susposed to reflect real life. It just show what I'm afraid of sub-consciously, and it sure is scary that I'm living with that fear every second. friends keep me sane. hahah yes yes SOUTHPARK. heehee. dedicate this part to you lahs. yupyup I expect an invitation to southpark! so you better remember. Fun! xD
hais. I know I'm being very irritatable lately. haha yesterday dad poured the golden cracker thing on the yusheng first before piling the carrot and raddish and everything on top. I came, I saw and made a huge fuss. Being really pissed off and frustrated cos helloo the cracker thing represent wealth and it ALWAYS go on top and last!! you just compressed and destroyed all the wealth we're going to get for the year! =.o and being so irritated today cos you and everyone else is so obsessed about your hair. its just some hair standing up! whats the freaking big deal about that!!? yeayea. 2 fine examples of how irritable and unreasonable I was. hahah. Thanks dear for being as sweet as ever though I was horrid =/ sry sry love. I think I have a fever. Time is ticking by.
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