4:03 a.m. 2008-11-05
last week. last day.
I've been wanting to blog since a long time ago. Yet I seem to lose the gist of blogging everytime I come to the 'add an entry' page. I wanted to blog about sentamentalism, (which is what Im feeling) it being the last week of school. It just didn't seem real. School life has somewhat became like a rountine. Some things that always happen without fail.
Random things like -Weiliang late for lectures -Falling asleep in the freaking COLD cinema studies lecture every Friday. -Stephen Teo whom I find cixiang and cute(in a way). A classic example of what always happen on Mondays: Complaining and whining "I don't feel like going for 204." every monday at 1030-11am, knowing that I will still go, and only for the company. Sitting through 204 with hunger for 2 whole hours. Looking forwards to lunch at the more exotic places, (like the Palette, hall-12korean, hall-14jap, hall-1porridge, hall-2western+shavedice+choc/cheese waffles)Asking "Should I go for lit" every week after lunch and ended up going one-third of the times. Thanks GOOKers for adding so much life to the otherwise unbearable tutorials and the many wonderful lunch memories. Ben Kaijie Xinyi we have to keep our lunchdates okay?(: Today was the last day of school for me. It was also Penne School Uniform Day. I OVERSLEPT! Woke up at 1205pm, freaked out cos I missed the last com201 lecture, and the last com253 tutorial is in less than half hour! I'm sad that I missed out on the school uniform fun. Still wore it to 253 & 204 though. Had fun camhoring with BGBF & BGBF's bf after that. haha! Really NTU 一日游lor. From CS to Can12 to ADM to Can2 to my room to CanA. wheeeeeeeeees! okay lah, my next post would probably be a long time later. hahaha sillylittlegirl is stressed but will survive. (: Jiayous to everyone mugging for exams!
3:22 p.m. 2008-11-01
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2:23 p.m. 2008-11-01
com253
Its November! 2 more weeks to exams while everyone else have been having school holidays since 2 weeks ago! :(
Rewatched Bowling for Columbine, Breathless & Battleship Potemkin. 3 films down, 9 more films to go. Hais, add in Modern Times for com201 and Persona for Lit, 11 more films to go. WHERE GOT TIME! and our dearest adorable professor Stephen Teo gave us wonderful hints that there would be a compulsary question and emphasized on personal response. So I gather that I can't just spot and study two films which I planned to anymore. :( and that's only one subject out of five.
11:36 a.m. 2008-11-01
its still leaving me breathless..
Lacan has postulated that all infants, in their primal narcissism, recognize in their mirrored image a corporal unity which they do not perceive in themselves and to which they anxiously aspire. The subject therefore projects itself into the position of the other, achieving in this act an imaginary self-control. In identifying with this projected other self the child anticipates its accession to mastery over its body and in so doing also imagines the outline of its own ego.
The Imaginary is that order of experience which controls the mirror stage and in which the subject seeks to identify himself in the image of the other. Constituted against the Symbolic, which succeeds it but does not erase it, the Imaginary is the persistent drive in the individual to organize data in terms of illusory binary relationships. It represents both a harkening back to an eariler understanding in terms of the mirror, and a nolstalgic return to that period in its development in which the subject sees the world from the comforting duality of the child-mother relationship. In contrast, the symbolic smashes the imaginary duality of the mirror, forcing the child to admit the father into his worldview and to recognize the transitory nature of his special relationship with the mother. The recognition of the father brings language and an understanding of symbolic systems, because the admission of a third term implies a forth, and so on until the multiplicity of the social order becomes part of the subject's understanding of his position in the world. The individual never leaves the Imaginary behind him, but continues to experience his world within its perceptual framework. The child will continue to feel the attraction of the other and to undergo experiences in which the Imaginary is the controlling register. Through such hallucinatory instruments as the cinema, ideology suffuses the real condition of the economic interchange with an illusory, imaginary reality.
1:04 a.m. 2008-10-29
supper
Wasabi Fillet Burger Ice milo Fries Apple Pie Ice Latte Mcnuggets Hot fudge sundae
for supper. I win lors. (and today is only the 1st day canA Macs open till late.)
8:21 p.m. 2008-10-24
bendans.
Well done. 203midterms answers are up. Flunk BOTH with flying colours. WELLDONE!
Times like this I hate myself. and Im such a photoshop IDIOT! 是真的笨还是假假的? 我是真的笨ok! :(
1:40 a.m. 2008-10-23
torn
I could give up now and go sleep. I could continue to stare at the endless 203 readings. I could start on my prose paper. I could start 204 design.
I'm torn.
2:32 p.m. 2008-10-22
hell lots of rantings.
SIAN & TIRED. to quote my dear roomie, "CUI BEYOND CUI". I want to research and start drawing my GOOK-E design, but I know once I start it would take hours for me to stop..and there's the prose paper due tomorrow and I'm not even planning to touch it..until after 203..
Tomorrow, Thursday is going to be horrible day..203midterms in the morning, rush out prose paper in the afternoon, rush out 204 logo and banner in the evening, combine and do website with benjy at night. (woots, found another BP-er. :D) Hot date with BGBF on Friday, Hot date with BF on Saturday, Kbox with YY on Sunday.. I used to look forward to all these, no longer now because all I look forward to now is the end of every single thing. Its getting out of hand. Its never going to end. Even by the end of all this there will still be something nagging strongly at me, for discussion board postings, for the nine 253 library books I borrowed, for watching the dunno-what film I missed in 253 lecture, for watching Persona which I missed in literature, for starting to find out whats with 203 China in Media and researching, for so many things that just keep piling. I just dont want to care anymore. That's why Im blogging. 203midterms is freaking stupid. I gave up my 20% prose paper for a 203 quiz that's only 10%. what bullshit is that man. So much readings for the 10%. It is so not worth it. please...
2:01 a.m. 2008-10-22
北斗星
夜空的流星向寒冷的北方下墬 往北斗星的方位 你在我不了解的世界 城市的愛情彌漫著多少的虛偽 在表情冷漠的街 上演著離別
將過去刻化成石碑 我溫習所有情節 卻刻出一個字叫後悔 星星的眼淚 滿天的風雪 我被回憶四面威脅 你拒絕了解 什麼叫凋謝 什麼叫做哭著失去一切 星星的眼淚 滿天的風雪 誰不為愛傷痕纍纍 你竟然堅決 將故事結尾 我的笑容已經不完美 只有夏天盛開的玫瑰 放肆的嘲笑落葉 自己卻不敢不敢面對 被擱在玻璃瓶的歲月 Love this song man~ I remember it being my favourite song in upper primary. :D I remember running to the radio everytime 933 plays it. :D
11:57 p.m. 2008-10-21
deadmeows.
There's only so much a person can take. Last week is hell. This week is worse. Will be deaad by the end of Thursday.
4:43 a.m. 2008-10-17
crapx
Cinema studies is challenging. Wanted to email Jeremy for deadline extension for prose paper, but he doesnt freaking have an email!! @_@ I seriously enjoy studying and all, but not when there's time constraints! I wonder if Im going to go without sleep tonight again. <.> Itunes somehow decide to play all the indie music even though its on shuffle. haha nice. xD Akira Kurosawa, liked him and his films since sec3 when I watched his "Dreams". I would really enjoy reading and researching on him and Rashomon, IF THERE IS MORE TIME! :( sigh, so dead. omg its 5 already.
7:01 p.m. 2008-10-16
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Had a nightmare last night. It's been ages since I last dreamt-6 months ago? Throughout the dream I was running and hiding from someone who's chasing and trying to kill me. I woke up with a weird and shaking feeling-not just because of the heart-pounding experience but also I thought I was late for 201quiz! hahaha. I think my dream is somehow connected to stress and the idea of escapism. Just run and run and run away from all the work...
Im going to help Huimin fight this tuesday afternoon. I wonder Im getting myself into, but its a good cause. hahahs.
11:16 p.m. 2008-10-15
styles of loving-com201
STYLES OF LOVING
Eros- a style of loving that is passionate, intense and fast moving. Not confined to sexual passion, eros may be expressed in spiritual, intellectual, or emotional ways. Storge- comfortable 'best friends' kind of love that grows gradually to create a stable, even-keeled companionship. Ludus- peaceful, sometimes manipulative style of loving. love is a challenge, a puzzle, a game to be relished but not to lead to commitment. Mania- an unsettling style of love marked by emotional extremes. Manic lovers often are insecure about their value and their partner's commitment. Agape- selfless kind of love in which a beloved's happiness is more important than one's own. Agapic lovers are generous, unselfish, and devoted. Pragma- pragmatic and goal-orientated style of loving. Pragmas rely on reason and practical considerations when initially selecting people to love.
I think my desired loving style is storge and agape. I think my loving style is storge, mania and agape. I think my bf loving style is eros, agape and pragma. I think my bf desired loving style is eros and storge.
So what is your (desired) loving style? (: That was from com201 textbook page 220 for whoever's interested. (yea it may come out for tml quiz and yes I study romantic relationship is in my syllabus. )
12:14 p.m. 2008-10-15
breakd.
Crashed dramamamas @ radiofusion last night. First time being on-air. HAHA its really fun lah, I so want to do it next sem! kj and cheenapok ppl hahahaha dont pangseh hor! :D
Talk about stress. Time is running out and nothing get done, mostly not even started. Breakd. I see roomie's blog. And the first paragraph is how I felt last night, only I lack the capacity for such composition. I know I seem selfish and reluctant but I just have a lot on my mind. Its been a long long time since I felt so horrible and crazy. Its hard to stop once the silent tears roll. Sometimes friends amaze me, like they did in the most unexpected way.(: I hereby declare jiching as my new BFBF! I'm going to play the hotel game WL sent everytime Im stressed and crazy and see how long it would continue to be effective.(: Okay la, I shall listen to BFBF and just concentrate on 201quiz today. Everything else doesn't exist.
7:24 p.m. 2008-10-13
siren birthday gook-e
Freaking firedrill. -.- Haha and Im pretending to be out. The siren darn noisy la. Sleeeep makes me feel good today. 4 hours.
Wl's initiation and celebrations went smoothly. Liz's cake is superbly nice! She christened it "Death by Sugar". No wonder I like! hahahaha rushed off to com204 (in amazing race style :P) after that late. com204 tutorials have advanced significantly from being my most dreaded and hated class to being the one I most love and have stomachache in.(due to excessive laughter) This group of GOOKish crazy people makes all the difference man~ :D PS: Lunch @ XinYi's hall is gooood! curry kutsu cutlet is yums. PSS: Time to finish up complaint letter for 204 and start 253.
10:32 p.m. 2008-10-12
superb
Me is superwoman. Had Yukiyaki lunch-cum-dinner buffet with Aaron on Saturday followed by My Magic movie! @ BPP Macs after that through the night until 10am the next day! Slept for three hours and went jogging with cousins at BP park! Saw many monkeys there! Ayeeeeee back to hall now and I'm falling sick.
I should sleep early tonight.
12:17 a.m. 2008-10-11
mug klub
Hee today is the first Friday since school started that I woke up before noon. Today is also the first day since school started that I spent the ENTIRE day in school and not go back to hall.
9am-3pm @ 4th floor benches with Kj Aggie Nurbaya, oh food glorious free-food-buffet is loveee. heehee it was a stroke of luck that Head of school told us to help ourselves when the VIPs left. They couldn't stop reminding me that I ate the most but the food is nice okay! xD 3pm-630pm @ lecture. We watched our first coloured film today! VERTIGO by Alfred Hitchcock, one of the best movies I have watched. Its captivating and draws you in emotionally, and its subtle horror-ish. With good acting and filming techniques. (: Recommanded! 630pm-830pm @ benches outside library. Hahaa joined WL and continued mugging for com201! Mugger mode today. Then dad came and went home straight. Thats my full day in WKWSCI today and not in hall! coooooolness. <3MUGKLUB HAHAHAHAHA
3:46 a.m. 2008-10-10
=(
Blehs. Emo mode again. Sianz. Shall wake up early tml morning, I hope.
Mug Klub heehee
3:48 p.m. 2008-10-09
:D birthday
One of the main reasons I took HL101 is cos Waiting for Godot is one of the set texts. Nothing Jeremy says make sense, Im so glad I have my dep knowledge of Godot and absurdism to tap into. I feel like doing Prose paper although deadline is 2 weeks away. I hate lit lectures and classes at university level but I love the subject. (:
Today is such a fun day. haha CCP's birthday celebrations. Tho I feel sabo-ed into doing things -.- and i ran all the way from room to busstop this morning just to come early! blehs. but birthdays are fun and exciting!:D LOLL hee yayy jc owes me a treat! <3
8:00 p.m. 2008-10-08
<3mugs.
Heehee Supei is HAPPY today :D Supei is glad that Xin Yi woke her up at noon regarding assignment and Supei decided to travel all the way from hall to Vivo Pacific Coffee for her craving of Caramel Latte!
Supei is happy, not only for the new apple caramel latte and extremely yummilicious ham & spinach quiche, but also because Supei is finally productive! wheeeeeeeees~ the boarding school eveline the bicycle thief communication climaxes adapting to culture differences communication and self odour of chrysanthemums 6 satisfying hours. :D Times like this that makes Supei hearts mugging. :D The night is still young! <3
4:06 a.m. 2008-10-08
to ponder over.
�人是因寂寞而孤单,还是因孤单而寂寞?�-《一切完美》
真理和现实又有什么不同? Whats the difference between truth and reality? -com253 Rashomon
3:00 a.m. 2008-10-08
too much sick.
My body clock is seriously screwed up. I fell asleep in cinema studies tutorial when I was sitting right in front of the (Hongkong film expert who also happens to be a martial arts expert) professor Stephen Teo. That was at approximately 1pm. I fell asleep again in com204 lecture at approximately 230pm. Went back to hall after lecture and slept from 4pm to 1030pm!!
Hais, told myself to study/revise experimental films today but due to my sleeping in classes I don't know anything about it. :( Work is piling up again. 1)*graded PR com204 assignments every week (whole of Oct) -but <3 my group for the fun & laughter peace & joy. (: 2)Poetry Paper rewrite (16 Oct) -which I finished a week ago! :D 3)*Prose Paper (23 Oct) -4 stories to read, a few question to choose, essay to write. Not started. :( 4)*com201 mid-term quiz (16 Oct) -aiming high this time after the last 201 screw up. MUG KLUB first mission. :D 5)*com253 term paper (19 Oct) -shiatxz darn important, if this screws up 253 is gone case. :( 6)com201 assignment? (9 Oct) -Hope she forgets about it HAHA.
3:35 a.m. 2008-10-07
美丽的下午
今天午餐被拉去CAN1。。哈哈还好啦,大家觉得CAN1气氛很不错,与其他食阁与众不同。轻松休闲的环境, 让人有一种来到另个世界的感觉.
这种感觉在我们繁忙的生活中确实很难得。。 它是美妙的。
10:53 p.m. 2008-10-05
sick again
Hais Im sick.. Huimin can testify that I've been sneezing the whole day. haha feeling feverish and sorethroatish too now.
Missing out on Superband finals. :( In hall researching for com253 term paper now..its 25% of final grade..major stress..
"Kurosawa asked Toshir� Mifune to model his character's movements after wildlife, particularly the lion. Kurosawa's vision of how a lion was supposed to move was heavily influenced by the wildlife documentary work of husband-and-wife team Martin E. Johnson and Osa Johnson."
Came across this while researching on Rashomon. It reminds me of the very early on pre MULAN day! When Tang showed us the video of a group of actors acting as horses. I wonder if anyone remembers. Haha there's just too much Mulan memories. <3TCN
11:55 p.m. 2008-10-04
emoshitzx
Why is everyone so emo these days? Even if not emo also tired and sick. The feeling sucks, especially when its people you care about. Its like..at least 5 friends? Hais, the emo vibe is going around.
and Im affected.
4:29 p.m. 2008-10-03
fate, friendship, experimental
Its super sad seeing each other around school, but hardly even talking. Everyone's just too busy and caught up with our own lives. It had only been a mere 2 months, circumstances have change so much. Sometimes I ponder, is it just a twist of fate? Seems like it. That was how it all started anyway. Guess it was too good to be true. I wouldn't give up my life now for anything though. I just wish..somehow things could be just a little better. Sighs, memories.
Sitting in 253lecture now. I very much prefer experimental theatre pieces to experimental films, tyvm. oh the JoyLuckClub-deconstructed Days.. 253 Note to self: Okay lah, shall research Rashomon and do it if its doable, if not it would be Battleship Potemkin once more.
4:16 a.m. 2008-10-03
recess week.
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