me wan sleeeepp!
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meaning I also got 2 hours of sleep before work. =xx and this other temp ahboy guy came LATEEE. rahhh. like very late. =( I want cry liao lah..wish I came late on purpose too. lolx. Finally moved over to accounts side. much better! lucky also..if I stay at the main office in my current condition..I'll get fired. haha. TGIF! heh. actually the week seemed to pass quite fast. Been going out almost everyday after work..I even went library ytd! heh and sleeping late everyday..guess I'm trying to maximize my time lors.. I want a meaningful life. (:
I GOT A JOB! as boring admin. =/ data entry paperwork blablablah..the people here are quite nice lahs..but everyday do the same things..zzz. still looking for my ideal job..in the arts and media industry. Believe it or not, I miss school. I miss mugging. I miss my friends..I miss youu. I miss making notes, food/coffee places to curl up and study, I miss drama. I miss performing. I miss being exhausted everyday after rehearsals/crew/mugging/going out. cos they are meaningful. =xx last time is always nothing to do at home..sianz..now is no time! rahhh. everyday reach home at night...tv,net,maple,read, stares at phone and wait for call/sms, sleep. yea..kinda meaningless..maybe thats why Im reading again. like..I don't know..meaning in books? lol..after 6 years of not reading since being a bookworm in primary school. hahah! getting a new phone soon! finally~ hee.
26th-Shopping with yingying Going with Dorothy to see if we can get jobs at SAM tml..and darling coming back! finally. haha..hopes everything would turn out fine. (: Happy Birthday Wenbin n Beth! and Happy 2008 everyone!
Lets start from the beginning..JJC. Then there was Os results. Went to AC, missing all my friends there and the JJ school culture which I love and felt so comfortable in. I guess what I'm really thankful for is the acceptance into DEP. I have no idea how I got in. I was really really lucky. Compared to all the audition stories I heard from both batchmates and juniors, mine was really NOTHING. The whole thing lasted for what..15 minutes? No preparation even needed. 5 minutes to read the Anne Frank script and then I went into the black studio..and just performed. Ms Wong asked me about past experiences and filled in a form, telling me she knew Gary Tang. and that was that. I was accepted. Compared to others who applied months before, got sent the script and spent weeks preparing for it..those that went for music and dance auditions..those that got asked tough questions..those that had to wait for ages for a confirmation/rejection letter or call..I'm soooo lucky. Being a shy/quiet/not outspoken girl somemore. That started off my whole life in acjc. For that, I'm really thankful. (: Had my first Acsian Theatre experience at Tempest Crew, till now, still definately the BEST experience and favourite time in JC life. The journey that started it all. The experiences and friendships that started from Tempest Crew: Jocelyn, Henryk, Tushar, Elina, Ryna, Aaron, Pamy, Lindis. May not be close to these people now, but they sure are significant. I remember the days, where I tied Henryk and Jocelyn together with masking tape..the days where they got into trouble at Cityhall MRT for following me and Tushar through the barricade without paying. The days where me and Elina rushed around like mad women getting gifts at Raffles City at 1+pm, forgetting we have a matinee show at 2pm. The days of painting that wonderful Tempest floor set, being transformed into a magical world. The days when UE Square chicken and maggie noodles and meiji yougart were the IN things and absolute necessity. Its the later part of Tempest crew that started off this blossoming first love. Our enthusiasm about crew and staying back late brought us together. Moments that I treasure and will never forget: Stealing his wallet and him chasing me all around the school past midnight. Pamy's comment that we seemed to know each other since young, when we only saw each other for the 1st time 2 weeks ago. Lindis that started the scandal. The production days where we teased each other mercilessly, where he would plonked down on the SRT sofa and squashed me, despite the much space on my other side. The days where we felt so innocent, and when I treated him like a loved brother. He allows me to be childish, because he is too himself. Then there was Theasthai. The start of the silly little girl journey. It was merely a monologue, yet I did quite well. I got a B+. It was a really pleasant surprise. I guess it was because it was the right role for me. The first DEP exam-cum-showcase. Then after that, INVENTIO. The emo group piece. Glory, Kathy, Jocelyn, Me and the David fisco. loneliness, with clothing movements. I really like the piece, and the way we chorograph everything, movement, music, poems, all together. My black dress. Working together to solve problems and pulling through as a group. (: Then there was IS, my initial set design-Alice in Wonderland. I really enjoyed that short period of experiences, and appreciate all the efforts and time Rae put on this. After that was Group-DAMASK drum: Chin, Vicky, Rose, Krit, me.( ghost, princess, narrator, gardener, courtier) The nicest group of people ever. No politics, no conflicts. We worked well together right from the start till the end. Had so much fun and laughter together. This crazy wacky groupmates are the reasons I survived during tough emotional times at that time. The days and time spent together bitching and all are simply wonderful. and yea we did a great job for both prelims and As. Then the real IS-devised movement. silly little girl and the funny old tree-something I missed deeply. I had lots of fun doing this all the way,playing with the rope sequence. the way it progresses and moved along from prelims to As. darling and crew slogging to build my tree set..all their injuries.. Kenneth playing the tree, dance partner. For such an experienced and great dancer to do this type of "silly dance", and do play the part with such commitment..He helped me so much..to get into the role and be the best I can be. especially during tough times as well. The consultants of course..all of them. The workshop experiences..the chance to perform in front of all the professional theatre practitioners. To receive useful feedbacks and be motivated and encouraged with all the positive feedbacks.The silly little girl: someone I truly can identify with. I LOVE the entire journey. <33 -mid-authum festival skit for Read Singapore! opening and closing.. wy: same subjects, same form class, same subject classes, same breaktimes. A friend I trust and confide in. Thanks for always being there when I need a listening ear, for tolerating all my relationship problems and always helping. For company on the mrt. For being a math/lit/dep discussion buddy. Tho we slowly grew apart, I know this friendship will be one that lasts. And this friendship all started off in Tempest when I gave my packet of caramal apple chips to this weird starving guy who keeps having bleeding nose. hahah! Sw: First friend I made when I enter AC! haha thats before I know any drama people lahs..and she's from a form class that is full of drama peeps! Same lit and math class and breaks. Heh, we always go to classes together since math and lit are always consequtive or with a break in between! I miss the weds cafe times when we would rush down to the cafe to chill/eat/chat/do homework at 1130am after lit tutorial and stayed until it was time for class contact time! The times we would always buy snacks and drinks into math tutorials to eat. The times we always go to math and lit tutorials early to chill. The friday morning breakfast dates at void deck, where we would always order the same thing: omelette. Wonderful memories..I miss that gal. GSC class which seemed looong time ago. Its a class I look forward to, cos classmates are nice, laoshi is nice..someone who made a difference, and I feel so comfortable and had fun in a class where everyone is enthu about discussing issues in chinese. :D Had a group of friends in math class & lectures, krit henryk seewah weiyi shuhui wenbin wanxian etc sharing the common goal..to do well in math and prove peijoo wrong! hahah math lectures are extremely boring and math itself is just too tough. Its really this group of friends that made me not fall asleep and made math enjoyable^^ hee..remembering the time when wenbin tried to teach me to ride an unicycle during maths..the time he comforted me over horrible PW results when he was actually worse off than me..the time he ran the last laps of 2.4 with me.Remembering the times we had extra math remedial classes at Burger King/Macdonalds..the times when Henyk was always late..when Henryk thought Jurong Point was at Jurong East.The times we went Biopolis/Holland V intending to do math..The times Mdm Lim complained to Mrs C and got drama people into trouble.. Remembering the times when friends were there for me when I was down..whether they know it or not..darling, seewah, wenbin, weiyi, rox, eileen, kenneth, rose, beth etc. All the teachers that made a difference. I think I really have lots to be thankful for huh? (:
toe still hurting.. 2 years of jc life.. 1 year 9 months of love life.. 2 years of dep & theatre.. 2 years of experiences.. 2 years of passion.. I HATE the way the new year is filled with EMPTINESS and INSECURITY and UNCERTAINTY and NEGATIVITY. Its driving me CRAZY.
Merry Christmas! (: Had a wonderful christmas eve with darling at Vivo rooftop & along the Singapore River. <333
-PATTERNED scratches on my thigh..(artistic sia..like many triangles stuck together) yepp..thats the result of 2 crashes..once down a steep slope. Henryk was in front of me and he pro-ly manuvear his way through the group of people..while I went flying straight into them..and crashed to the roadfloor.. The second time..also got a group of people..tried to turn to avoid them..and crashed into a 2m soil wall thingie. signz..what traumatising experiences. heh but gotta thanks everyone for being so patient with me..(being always the slowest and last) and taking care of me! (: Krit, Boon (is that his name? whom I find super cute.hahah..and omg he's taller than me can..I feel so zi bei..lols. ), Kathy, Tushar, Glory, Ebel, Henryk! <3 ^^ Overall it was really fun tho. haha love the flower place. (: wished I have pics! Havent cycle for..(so long I cant rmb! 8 years? ) haha and yeah..this is some exercise sia..all the uphills parts..tho compared to the rest..I'm such a slacker. haha. not really lahs.just super unfit. Coconut place..boat rides..and guess what. It didnt rain at all there! wahaha..if it rains..I'll probably get 10 times more injuries..or DIE. lols. started raining on the bus ride back. and I found out something amazing. Bus from Krit&Henryk place(in ToaPayoh) to Westmall(bukit batok) only takes 10 mins! xD Christmas is coming nearer..I'm dreading it..the wait for christmas..the preparations..the sacrifices..the decisions..the disappointments..the confusion..the emotions..are just too much to handle.
THURSDAY Met up with huimin and then we went over to Carrine's house! Decided to go Marina Square, and we walked a long long way from her house to find the correct busstop! which stops at Suntec. and SO. got lost in the super big suntec with all its tower and fountain of wealth. and then guess what..saw a sign that says Milinium Walk and we followed it..into CANDY EMPIRE! haha and a super duper HUGE harvey normans. after walking a super super long time, we finally reached marina! haha wanted to go kbox but the timing wasnt right..so we went for ice-cream buffet! hahah this is the most wasted "bo hua" buffet I went to in my life lor. 3 ppl..eat what..10 cups of icecream only. and I eat the most somemore..the manager was quite funny tho..draw all kinds of pictures with the icecream..he's damn pro also lahs..den carrine so cute..she keep guessing what the manager is drawing.."snake" "worm" "minnie mouse" blahblahblah. we wasted quite a lot of icecream tho..and carrine wrapped chocolates chips n rainbow dots with tissue and smuggles in her bag! ROFL. hahas.went to walk around and then waited for AGES for 960. saw vicky! 960 traffic jam somemore..and I fell asleep. haha! went back to min's house and we baked sherpard pie! carrine super funny lahs..went to ahma's house to get 4 potatoes! xD raided the fridge and ended up making the pie out of potatoes, egg, carrots, tomato, sausages, salt, pepper. hahas! quite nice..hee. aye kinda fell asleep on huimin's bed. =x maybe tired bahs..maybe emo. haiz. I still wanna go ESCAPE!!
Finally went out with siewhong, yanmin, yanxiang & wilson! haha susposed to meet sh & ym at bpp busstop at 10, but I was still sleeping at 10. =/ heh, rushed all the way there and reached at 1035, and found out that ym took a BUS! lols..and he lives nearer there than me lahs! I was preety amused on the bus ride..ym&sh couldnt stop teasing and suaning each other the whole journey..shall not elaborate.-winks- Went to walk walk around far east..and guess what. The 2 "sisters" were more enthu about shopping than us lahs..so we basically followed the sisters round and round and round and up and up and down and down and around far east, and they only entered like..4 shops? and yeah..we're so indecisive, couldnt decide what to do and where to go. Had lunch at Subway, hee..it has been quite some time since I last ate subway..which is that time with aaron& weiyi in westmall I think..which is before Alevels..subway is somewhat connected to jc life..which I miss. finally decided to head towards Plaza Sing..went Paradise's acarde, (where I learnt how to use turbo! xD) played lots of Daytona, tho we did not succeed in tapping the card fast enough for all 5 players. I keep losing to ym by less than a SECOND! roar. and he play daytona super exciting one..shout from begining to end..all 20 laps. haha! fun ^^ went for pool next, 3 ppl against 2..me & sh noob de..hahah if we pair up against the guys..cannot imagine. (: I think my pool skills deprove a lot sia..one game can only hit in 1 or 2 balls..easy ones also miss.. played around 5-6 games..all super close one..ultimately just leave the black and white ball. heh, its playing without pressure.xD headed over to Cathay to watch National Treasure! we all sneaked food from shilin & quickbite in, with a family popcorn combo! hahas the movie's quite nice and exciting! tho its susposingly "not my type". haha, and nope I did not fall asleep. (: walked all the way back to taka for dinner at crystal jade! yx was being a bully, keep stepping on sh's n my shoes. =/ I wearing slippers somemore..tried to step back and he was wearing proper shoes. zzz. ehs..this is one of the rare times I really wish I have a younger or older sibling to bully..since parents are so unreasonable..n serious. queue number 47, 30+ groups of ppl before us..finally! ordered la mian, xiaolongbaos & some seafood/crab baos. the crab bao is so small but so nice. hahah..couldnt finish my lamian tho..was so chili hot! aiyos..my chili tolerance really go down liao..drank so much water in the process..was afraid to add too much vinegar also..cos gastric problem..ate until 9+..still got long queue outside. heh, christmas is coming..everyone is out. only I keep having a bad feeling about christmas.. managed to squeeze onto 190 at 10+. I think thats because most people are heading home later than that bahs. heex. darling actually call me for the 1ST time! was so pleasantly surprised. heh, felt kinda weird tho, cos noone else on the bus were talking..and it was jammed pack so I guess everyone could hear me -.- yupps, so that kind of sum up my last 2 days.
and I owe much of my jc experiences a proper blog post.( another time bahs..tired now. heh) -the innocent and carefree time in JJ growing and maturing. tho painful at times. >.<
Freedom is..innocence.(pic of small girl with eyes closed) THE RESULTS not really true, nowadays..I think my life and emotions (the more private parts at least) have become a huge drama. Interests: Thrill Seeker haha! very true! every line except maybe the last is SO true! ^^ Amusement: Adventurous yeah..similar to interest part, true. heh Passion:Traditional
had many sleepless night already..woke up like 6 times last night. each time dreaming or thinking about somethings, I don't even know if they are even dreams. currently starving. feeling weak. I just wanna dieee.
getting kinda bored liao..people who know me would know. I'm a super impatient gal..that cannot wait 5 mins without doing anything. staying so long at one place is like a miracle liao lor! dunno whether to go early or not, cos if ask me wait at the stuffy and crowded and bus interchange..I'll probably DIE. hahahs. u better appreciate it lor. hees. k lahs. meeting dor&esme after xmas! like finally after 2 years! omg it has been super long la..got together after shanghai trip in sec3..after that the 3 of us always sit together for literature& history lessons tho we were from different form classes. ESPEIDOT! is what we used to call ourselves. lols. all their drawings all over my Twelfth Night text! sentimental values sia.. yayy..n siewhongyanminboyuan on friday! lols. they wanna go shopping sia..haha as what sh told me..the guys are ENTHU abt shopping. and sister tan n sister koh! haha she was so high last night and I was laughing so much at the sisterlization of the two..-coughs- sisters. xD hee its kinda freaky. sh so pro lor. the last time I chat her was like..more than a year ago. Yet she could sense my "chen jin" or sadness or whatever u call that immediately, whenever a certain topic pops up. amazing.^^ <33 hmms like a lot of people got job liao lor...but all seemed to be admin de..I want something fun!! mediacorp hire me!! hahah. k lahs..really hope I can get the translation job. I think it's quite cool yeah..still waiting for calls or news.. For me, getting a job is to get work experience, money, and enjoyment bah..so hard to find, and yeah I know I'm being picky. hahah. Had this chat with laoshi just now about a so called "social taboo" topic..and yea I agree. Their personalities are really great. Reminds me of S, how when I first came to Ac for less than a month, how we didn't even barely talk at all. That time I was so confused, and helpless and innocent and emo..he allow me an excuse to slip away from C, and be a great listener and advicer in the cab. He shared his past stories..private stuff..made me feel better. and then we sneaked in starbucks back to SRT. hahah. All that when I barely even know him at all. That was one of the times in the super super early days in AC, that I have fond memories of, (lightsticks n all =P) kkies..its 8 liao..embarking on my hopefully successful journey le..wow I blog so much here..maybe cos there's nothing much to do bah..and that maybe this is a reflective place? lotsa memories come pouring back..I like it here. (:
I was sitting in the same place, same red sofa I last sat during the last week of my Alevels. I remember that day, when Aaron went off to meet Daryl & Clarissa, the day he promised to be back at 5, yet it ended up to be around 7pm when he finally came. It was also the day when he seemed nicer than usual. Yeah, maybe it's because of her and all, but seriously right now I don't care. =) Its the day he treated me to dinner that night, after such a long time. It's the day I spent so long alone some place outside. But despite all the disappointments of waiting and all, there was something I never told anyone. Throughout my Alevels and Prelims, that was the time, that I felt the most accomplished and productive, somehow my caramel latte seems to be especially nice that day. Mugging for lit seemed perfectly fun. Clockwork Orange, Brave New World. Herland was an last minute endeavour. haha. I have around 5 hours to kill before heading over the pick up the army guy. which I'm not even sure if it is the ok thing to do, what if we miss each other and he went home leaving me waiting? Its so late at night somemore, it's just the sheer hope and want and desire to see him. That tomorrow can't even wait. What I feel is what I told laoshi just now, that significance shi ren zao de aka significance is created by people. darling first time returning..I sure want to be there. I guess time spent here is still alright, reading the kitchen god's wife, a book a grabbed and put in my bag for emergencies boredom. hahah a book I bought in lower secondary when Amy Tan was "in" cos of TCN's production of the joyluck club. I never did finished the book throu the 4 years in nanyang, it was merely a book for the daily morning periods. A bookmark yanyin made for me, it was still in the book. miss that gal..4 years of classmates, sitting together in the 1st row, and copying her homework ^^ Thanks laoshi for ur treat! Jack's Place. hee. Have not eaten out at restuarants for what seemed like ages, tho its only been a week! haha, hopefully I get the job, thanks for ur recommandation and the company too. =) Heard that teachers who once taught me are sick..life's kinda unpredicatable huh? Its only been 2 years. and so much has happened. oh wells. Going back to my book and coffee~! 3 more hours to go.lol!
Went kbox with xiaoyu & peijun..sodagreen maraton sia..hahah ya had fun singing.^^
I feel like a little girl again(: weiyi called..a really pleasant surprise. glad to hear that all's fine..and that he n aaron are in the same company..that more intensive trainings n drills start today..that the people there are not that pai kias. I don't know I guess it makes me feel more..secure. knowing that they are all right. chatting to friend online..they always ask..whether aaron got call or not..den ask say what..and I'm like..err can't remember..I'm too indulged in his voice le. Then they call me crazy in love. hee. on maple also..got someone say can tell that I love my bf a lot..all the maple guys also reject..and then I heard relationship stories from other people..sad de..girl breaks with guy cos of extremely stupid reason..cos guy sometimes 'ignore' girl on maple? say sry and everything for months still no use. omg la..like that I break dunno how many million time le..then so long le guy still cannot get over..quite sad lahs..hmm this is a ramblish and confusing paragraph =/ suddenly my next week seem preety packed. heh. a few smses and yay! finally. haha. But still don't have a lot of people's numbers. :( hmm. guess for now..looking for a job. not that urgent^^ ayes..eyes hurting now..been playing maple for almost the whole day. priest lvl 91 le.heh. today chiong2x..up 3 to 4 levels..3.30am le..better go slp le..nitez world. still loving and missing u
The teacher said, "In order to answer your question. Go to the padi field and choose the biggest padi and come back. But the rule is: you can go through them only once and cannot turn back to pick." The student went to the field, go through the first row and saw one big padi stalk, but he wondered....maybe there is a bigger one later. Then he saw another bigger one... but thought may be there is a even bigger one waiting for him. The teacher told him, "...this is love... you keep looking for a better one, but when you realised later, you have already missed the person...." "What is marriage then ?" the student asked. The teacher said, "In order to answer your question, go to the corn field and choose the biggest corn and come back. But the rule is: you can go through them only once and cannot turn back to pick." The student went to the corn field. This time he was careful not to repeat the previous mistake. When he reached the middle of the field, he has picked one medium corn that he felt satisfied, and come back to the teacher. The teacher told him, "this time you bring back a corn.... you look for one that is just nice, and you have faith and believe this is the best one you got.... this is marriage."
omg i haven't blogged for superduper long! close ones went NS today. =( spent the last 2 weeks going out and having fun..most of the time. went to the zoo, went to explore old yiochokang-neo tiew road, went wildwildwet, went to marina, went to orchard, went to his house.. had some tough moments or days too, with heart-breaking/stabbing emotions blahblahblah. all the uncertainties n all. I really hope all goes well. cos.. then there was pre-prom n prom. had fun shopping despite all my complains and sore legs. and yeah. I'm proud to say I only spent like..err less than $30? (and the chunk of remaining promcash went towards food,wildwildwet& zoo & movie tickets) haha! decided to cut my hair before prom cos it was too long, but I got a free hair straightener treatment too! xD tho it was only temporary and lasted only for the night. then there was prom. all the photo takings n all. went iceskating and to play acarde with aaron & weiyi. heh, quoted from weiyi, "slap me the next time I agree to iceskating". and within the next 1.5 hours, he was enquiring about skating courses and saying he wants to go again! haha! yea. I was only able to WALK all along, until the guys kinda forced me to SKATE. like to KICK OFF, and all that. which was scary. but i did it! haha I think I managed to skate successfully kicking off with both legs alternatively! then there was the DEP PARTY. great to see all the drama peeps again =D food, gift exchange, mariocarts, guitar game. blablablah.n ya..finally pay that 60 bucks! haha at least now i wouldnt feel so guilty. ^^ other than that..there's going out with santa! ^^ movies, acade, lots of getting lost.=P went bugis with huimin today. more shopping. bought darling his christmas present. min would say I bian tai, but i think he would like it. =D Aye, miss him so much already. really really hope all is well. next week: forum kbox, date with santa, siewhong&yanmin, cousins.. ESCAPE anyone? =P meanwhile..I can't deny. life sucks. while activities feel them up and I appreciate everyone around me, but there's something missing. actually there's a lot missing. Like this giant hole that constantly reappears every now and then. especially at night. instinctively when I woke up in the morning, I could sense it.
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