1:29 a.m. 2009-04-01
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Horribly guilty.
2:37 a.m. 2009-03-26
the speech that is better off as an essay
I�m sure everyone is familiar with the recent stabbing case that took place in NTU. There�s blue police tents for body, there�s cordoned off areas, there�s police cars and ambulances. It is not human cluedo, it is a real time tragedy. Imagine what the student may have gone through to be driven to such extreme measure, imagine the intense pain his loved ones must be feeling now. But look around, I�m sure most of us simply laugh this matter off. Instead of showing any real concern or sensitivity, we laugh and make cruel jokes such as �Let�s have a consultation with Prof at the rooftop!�, tutors greet their students with �Class, put away your knives.� Even the innocent taglines for our open house �At NTU we make the news�, brings about much laughter. Witty reinterpretations and mainstreaming of the term �stabbing� are becoming more and more common. Sure, we acknowledge our insensitivity by telling each other �Eh, don�t be so bad la!� but we are still quick to laugh along. The seriousness of the case is definitely no laughing matter, yet it seems like almost everyone around us laughs about it.
We all know the benefits of laughter, hence I�m going to focus on the darker aspects of laughter�laughter is not the best medicine in many cases. Why do people laugh? A common reason is to use laughter as a form of protection, a type of mask that helps people deal with emotions. For example in the stabbing case mentioned, laughing about it may seem insensitive, but perhaps it may be merely an attempt to deal with the overwhelming nature of the situation. It is not because we are inhuman, but rather because laughing is an easy way out. Likewise, people also laugh when they are scared, I�m sure many of us give out nervous laughter on a roller coaster or even during Fright Night. This is because laughter numbs emotions, and reframes a specific threat or stress, such that it becomes less overwhelming. Laughter is a mask put on by people to hide their real selves and real feelings more often than we think. Think about this, how many of you has watched comedies such as Mr Bean? We laugh at him for his stupidity, we laugh at him for making a fool of himself. Does it matter? Are these comedians really as funny as they seem? I don�t think so. There must be a reason why comedians tend to die early. Take for example our local comedian MC King, who passed away last year at a tender age of 40. I believe that funny people tend to be sad people. In fact, it was noted that despite portrayed images, many comedians were depressed, met with unfortunate ends, or lived unhealthy lifestyles. We all have the impression that comedians must be the most open and carefree of all people since they are able to laugh at their own imperfections. Paradoxically, it is the audience who laughs at those imperfections while the comedian is left with only the laughter of the audience to console himself. Hence laughter can be built upon a foundation of sadness and insecurity. What about clowns? Similar to comedians, a clown�s job is to make people laugh. A clown is also always smiling. The joker in dark knight slices his lips with a knife to make it turn up. It is bloody and sadistic, but he�s always smiling. His famous line of �Why so serious? Let�s put a smile on that face!� encourages smiles and laughter in a sadistic way. He laughs easily, life seems so carefree, yet he is full of insecurities as a result of his traumatised and abused childhood. What laughter seems to be may not be what it is. What seems to be happy laughter may just be a cover up of sadness, fear and insecurities. Not only do laughter results from our own insecurities, it also builds upon others� vulnerabilities. This happens with ridicule�Laughter that hurts and offends. Clich� as it may be, some of us laugh when a fellow friend trips on a banana skin. We laugh when our friends make blunders and have so called bimbo moments. It may all be good natured joking, they may laugh along, but who knows if we have really hurt their feelings? The oldest theory of why people laugh is Plato�s "superiority theory". It suggests that laughter is a socially acceptable outlet for aggression, where laughter at someone else�s expense elevates one�s own self-esteem. Most of the time victims of ridicule are usually just different from the norms and hence are hard to be accepted. Humans being insecure creatures are thus vulnerable to destructive consequences such as stress or even suicidal tendencies, leading to depression and a low self esteem in the long run. Thus we should always be sensitive towards laughter. As I have mentioned, many people laugh to hide their true selves and emotions, they may be just waiting for someone to reach beyond the mask of laughter and into their hearts.
12:55 a.m. 2009-03-25
PLUTO
Walt Disney creates Pluto in 1930 right after the discovery of the planet Pluto!
so cute! xD
2:33 a.m. 2009-03-23
happiness is fleeting.
I think I know why I was so happy on Friday. Cos 205 speech 2's over.
I think I'll be damn happy this coming Tueday. Although I was never as unprepared as for Astro on Wednesday.
2:09 a.m. 2009-03-20
小丁当
最近开始再次听广播。。
小四那年开始喜欢上小叮当。 这么多年来,还是没有变。 感情路上,多愁善感。 这一年来变得独立多,很多事都看开了。 还好吧, 还是很容易被感动。 崇庆就是有那种魅力。。
8:52 p.m. 2009-03-17
:(
Don't feel like. No mood.
Want.
10:47 p.m. 2009-03-13
TEN
TEN.
1. The pretty pink & white flowers covering the trees and grounds at Yunnan Gardens we saw today. (: Wishing the pace of life will slow down, to be able to just stop and enjoy such beauty. 2. Hearing Edmund Chen's interview on radio. Nostalgia about childhood, where stars/celebrities played a relatively big part of. 3. Waking up and going for lecture late twice in a row. That's not surprising. The point is, there's pop quiz & quiz respectively on those days. 4. 208 quiz tells me what is fear. 5. Went to the Singapore Entertainment Awards Concert with Huimin & parents. 新遥 and oldies like 小雨伞 are good. JJ & DERRICK are so cute! SHOW is so SHUAI! HUIMIN is so high! haha, and I think my parents enjoyed themselves. (: 6. Grandfather's birthday at AMK. I adore him, but I wish I can communicate more. :( 7. Participated in some customer service focus group & some $10 survey in school. 8. Eating at canteen 5 for the first time in my life with roomie & Jin, and concidentally again the next day with 206grp. oh and meeting lide twice concidentally too. haha I love stingray! 9. Buying 2 cups of green apple green tea with green apple jelly with green straw for roomie and me, to find out that roomie went home. And I finished both cups of green myself. :X 10. Watching the movies He's just not that into you & Departure reminds me of life and people around me. Would say both are good films. (:
12:42 a.m. 2009-03-13
amused.
Unobtrusive measures should not replace the interview or questionnaire but should supplement and cross-validate it with measures that do not themselves contaminate the response.
Physical traces. Assessment of traffic patterns-->the popularity of exhibits in a museum.-->frequency with which floor tiles round exhibits had to be replaced. Counting the number of fingerprints on the pages of selected magazines in public places-->readership levels of advertisements. kinda funny. haha. i.should.sleep.early.tonight.and.heck.2.0.8.
3:34 a.m. 2009-03-11
rant
why do you keep hurting my feelings. this is what, the second time in 4 days. why the hell am I even hurt by the things you do and say. even though I bet its unintentional. I was tempted to confront, then I read what you said again. 254 teaches me. I realised what you mean can be the total opposite meaning. But the first meaning I got still hurts. first case, someone called it 'disappointed'. I was there. in my face. a off-hand remark. Now this. virtually. probably something I misinterpret. whatthehell.
1:26 a.m. 2009-03-06
(:
4:19 a.m. 2009-03-03
stab
Oh and I just realised how much more random my M blog post is, compared to the norm today--which is the EEEstudent-stabs-prof-&jumps-off-incident.
The jokes are still funny, I wonder, why are we so unsympathetic.
3:07 a.m. 2009-03-03
M.
The way the letter M is written fascinates me.
How do you write your M? Is your first stroke from up to down, and up again along the same line before curving a little off course to make the dip down? Or is it from down to up, with no overlaps? Are the tops sharp or curved? The way M is written has fascinated me since primary 1-- my primary 1 best friend's name is Melissa. We used to write letters to each other. I remember noticing the difference between the way I wrote her name and the way she signed off her name. My M was somewhat cursive, hers was one-stroke with curved tops. Then there was Yanyin, one of my closer friends in secondary school. Like many girls our age that time, we spend boring classes decorating our notes and notebook pages. I remember, her "m" & "n"s were written in such a way that its curved inwards. The "m" thus looking like a heartshape. I took that style of writing M in the shape of a heart in JC. Now, the M in my headings is shaped like a heart, while the M in normal words is simply a straight one-stroke M. [ok very random, and somehow reminds me of a 254 discussion board post. this is what? textual communication? LOL.]
10:45 a.m. 2009-03-02
recess week.
RECESS WEEK.
-watched pink panther -watched benjamin button -played MJ. -206 exploring. -broken into houses in bright daylight. -went bugis with ying -went PS with santa -ate secret receipe cheesecakes -watched marley & me. -drank boost. -went arcade. -kaleidoscope filming in school -Aaron's POP. -saw the rainbow. -pioneer seafood restuarant. -went BPP. -brought mum to casualpoet. -went chinatown. -went vivo. -went for an audition. -went phototaking. -went JP. -watched slumdog millionaire. -went esplanade. -went army market. -drank dark hot chocolate shot. -went pioneer & joo koon stations. -got a pink phone :D And this is how I played off the whole of recess. dieeeeeee. time to work.
10:35 a.m. 2009-03-02
pink panther! <3
pink panther phone! :DDDDD YAY two pink loves in my life now. haha!
happy because, its PINK PINK PINK! it comes with PINK earphones!!! I can finally listen to radio! (which is what I'm doing now) can play nice games! (my old phone has zero games -__-") OMG ITS PINK! :DDDDDD sad because, I stupidly somehow lost my old sim card. -.- all the contacts/photos/songs/sentimental smses GONE! T_T really hoping that I'll miraclously find it..
10:35 a.m. 2009-03-02
housebreaking.
时间是早上九点多。 日期是2009年2月26日。 地点是
旧了,快拆了。 一房半厅一水缸的感觉。 却有一种古老的美。 楼下,杂货店,诊所,便利店。。 关了,被锁了。 南~无阿弥陀~佛~ 异口同声。 偏僻的后巷, 洒满一块一块的小拼图, 不知将拼出什么图案。 不知讲述些什么故事。 结局, 会完整吗? 空荡荡的垃圾巢, 塞满传单的信箱, 操作停止的电梯。 我们屋破进破屋, 我来了。 �好兄弟,对不起啦� 推开大门的那一刻, 仿佛在拍电影。设想, 自己是勇敢破案的警察, 双手紧握着枪,双眼四处盯望。 还是胆小无知的小孩, 不知门后究竟,藏着什么恶魔。 空荡荡的房间。 一个水瓶摆放在正中间。 一个可口可乐的汽水罐。 砸破了的窗,砸碎了的灯。 被踩灭了的烟头。 空气的声音。 刺耳的宁静。 一面镜子。 两个人。
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